I actually miss blogging here. :)

They extended my contract again.
I wonder when it will end.
They are seriously making use of the economy downturn
to make me continue working there under contract
with no benefits except medical leave.
Pathetic.
I'm not saying I don't appreciate this, I really do.

However I did hope that yesterday will be the last day,
then I will be able to enjoy woohoo a lot of free time.
But oh well.

Anyway, work is hectic nowadays, so I don't mind,
at least time will pass by fast! Unlike last time.
So far, I'm loving it!

I'm trying to book one final driving practical before my
practical test this monday.
My smart mum suggested to my bro and me
to take one more lesson each before our test.
And now, after I've stored money into my a/c,
not even one slot is free!
And even if there's any, I'll not be free at that time.
So now I have to wait and pray that someone cancel their slot
at the last minute.

Tomorrow I'm on half day leave because of my prac. :)

Every Sunday Night I will cry,
no, not because Faris is back at camp,
but because I'm dreading work.
Its really torturing emotionally.

In addition to that,
Faris have to be in camp and not be there for me 24/7.
No one understands me better than he do. Ok other than my mum.
He will always know what to say to comfort me.
But now that he's in camp during weekdays,
I can't complain to him,
have him comforting me.
When night falls and we talk or sms each other,
I just don't feel like telling him whats happening at work,
and therefore that bad feeling inside me will
still be there.

I'm really not used to this,
to the fact that he can't always listen to me at any time I feel
like sharing what's happening.

Trying to start updating the blog more regularly. Heh
Just changed the template, halfway though. :)

He's serving the nation.
4 more days to go!
Can't wait for Saturday.

Recently I feel like going to the beach to
listen to the wave,
to enjoy the breeze,
and
listen to the sound of the aeroplane as it pass by. -.-

My adik say I emo.

And and I also want to balik kampuuuunnggggg
and dengar ayam berkokok. Weird sey.

Eversince the day boyfriend brought me to fish spa
with very kampung like environment (and I love it to bits!!),
I've been wanting to balik kampung
and enjoy its peacefulness.

The fish spa treat made me happy,
workplace environment took away my happiness,
seriously, I've never felt much more lifeless
than I am at this workplace.
You will never see me smile there except during breaktime
and chats with my friends online (they keep me sane at work).
Yes, that's how bad it is.
But I think now it seems a bit better than before.

I seriously need a break, a long one,
a break from work.
2 more months to 1 year working at this current place,
with, hmm let me count,
1,2,3,4,5...
I think I took only 5 days of leave in the 10 months
I've been working.

I need to get away from the city!!

Boyfriend, bring me to the beacccccch!!
Go Carousel the restaurant also can. hahah

Spent so much time with boyfriend recently.

He accompanied me like almost everywhere.
Thank you for riding me all the way to Tiong Bahru just to get my ibank thing.
Hehe. Just cause I was being forgetful. :P

I'm a happy happy girl. :D

24th April the theory test and I have not start studying yet. :(
Although its 20 more days to go, I'm sure it will pass by really really faastt.....

Oh well, just have to squeeze some time for it.
CDC havent update its site for june practical.
Everyday I've been logging in so that I would be able to book the first few weekend
for pratical. haha
Kiasu.

Alright, thats all.

Woo, its been quite long uh. Hehe

As I don't really have anything to do now, I'll just update this blog of mine.

Alhamdullillah,
My family financial have greatly improve after I started working,
and I'm glad to say that,
I'm able to own 2 things that used to be in my wishlist.
Refer to the sidebar which I've not update for a really really long time,
its stated that few items that I want to own is
1) A laptop.
2) My own DigiCam.

Am glad to say and happy to say that I've been able to achieve it! weeee
Now I've learnt how to manage my own money
and buy things within my means.

I learn to save as well.
Have opened up another bank a/c specially for my savings,
I'm so glad I did that, and I'm so glad that the bf
actually pushed me into doing it
and even accompanied me to open up another account. Heh.

Other than that.... *drumroll*
I've enrolled myself to driving license! wee.
Actually that is something that is not one of my top priority,
but with the push from my brother, and almost everyday lecture from him,
(well, he keeps asking me to enrol him to it)
I decided to enrol myself as well. Hehe

Super Duper Excited!
See, this is what I meant by my family financial have improved
after I start working.

I'm so glad I didn't force my parents to send me to uni
for me to continue my study,
or else, the family will still be loaded with financial dilemma and problems.
Theres always a hikmah in everything.
I'm sure one day I will further my studies, but
I guess, not now...

Anyway,
On the 9th of March (I think),
the girls (hud,nil,isha,lz n myself),
have a super super super advance birthday celebration for Nilam.

As it was her 21st, we decided to do something different than the usuals.

We meet up at Raffles to do a outside photoshoot
by an amatuer, soon to be professional photographer (i assume). :)






That are just some of the pictures. Wanted to upload more, but lazy to wait.

Recently I took 2 days leave off work, and
spend the free time with boyfriend and my family.

Appreciate those times and can't wait for more!

I love you all for making my life such an amazing journey. :)

I've got so much to say, yet I can't talk to anyone about it.
Everyone around me would burst crying if I talk about it.

I can still remember those times when he would bring us to the playground
every morning and after 30 mins he would be like
'mija, ipan, siti, amir, ini sudah pukul brapa, atok nk pergi pasar'

And we would force him to let us play for a few more minutes.
Those times where he would make silly things
and it would make all of us laugh.

His image lying on the bed, keep appearing on my mind.
One of the strongest person I've seen at the age of 90,
but now he's just lying there on the bed, helpless,
grunting once in a while,
it makes me sooooo sad.

When he teared and his eyes turned red,
I just forgot how strong he was before.

Even at that age, he still insist on working,
we didn't know he have a heart condition at that point of time,
no one knows,
cause he seems so strong.

I want to give him one hug.
Only one hug would be enough.

I take his presence for granted all this while,
not visiting the grandparents except for Hari Raya,
what kind of grandaughter am I.

I've been wanting to change the toilet bowl in his house,
but have yet to do so.

I must remember to change it.
I must remember not to take the existence of anyone for granted.
Everyone, show your love, before its too late.

I know ajal dan maut di tangan tuhan.
Apa yang baik semuanya datang dari Allah.
At the moment, all I can do is doa for him to pull through.
10% chance, is still a chance right.

He's going to be ok, he's going to be alright,
nothing is going to happen..

Ya allah, please help us go through this situation with patience.